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Name: Lucas
Country: United States
State: Tennessee
Birthday: 4/8/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: snowboarding, paintball, music, driving, computer games, adult swim, women?
Expertise: procrastinating
Occupation: Unemployed/Between Jobs
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AIM:  ninjawarrior06
Member Since:
12/24/2004
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| so yea, a lot can happen in a year. just this day a year ago i was waking up to a policeman at the door. following that experience was one of the hardest weeks of my life and i would never in any way wish that on any human being. through the setbacks, senior year turned out alright. got to do plenty of stupid things with the guys which is always fun, soccer was a lot better when evveryone actually stayed on the team, and even after falling off the roof of the high school, i survived to work another year at splash country. and now, im in the same place in my life that my sister was in a year ago. just starting college with no clue about what i want to do with my life and confused as hell. there are so many things that she could and would have accomplished had she only had the chance. now i'm here without a care in the world. surviving class and enjoying college life. drifting through without a care in the world, and trying with all i have to put the past behind me and live my life. each day is a constant reminder of the life that she once had, and the life i must now live without her. keeping my mind occupied has been the hardest thing. its always there, whether i show it on the surface or keep it deep inside. this void in my life will always exist, and i hope to one day see her again.
though i know you will always be there for me,
i know that i am not the one to be there by your side.
at one point you agreed with me, i knew you still had hope.
and as time went on i began to see the space between you and me.
how can a love that was once so strong so quickly fade away?
i will never be sure when and where it went wrong,
or why my feelings changed.
and as hard as you tried,
you could never take the pain away.
i'm sorry for what i put you through
and im sorry for what i've done.
but please move on,
whats done is done,
don't hold your breath for me.
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| i had to get a haircut to be able to work at splash...i hate it as usual...at least its good for a laugh. im not looking forward to work...theres really no point to me doing it...but o well. i think i'll just work a couple days a week and that will hold me over and give me gas money..well, im out..cya bye
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| so yea i already knew joe and keaton werent going to beta...didnt really expect steve to, then i hear that nate isnt going either..so im left to hang out with a new crowd for the week because i cant just get out of everything that i've committed to. but its cool. its always good to make new friends or at least strengthen the friendships with people i've known over the years. all i can say about the beach is at least i got a tan...there were no females within miles because of our secluded spot on the beach...no more atlantic beach for me...not enough people. get to go wakeboard soon with sarah near nashville so that should be a lot of fun. get to catch up on old times at beta convention lol..which im really looking forward to. ill have to go back to work once i get back home too...which means a haircut... and getting up before noon...ah...i dont know if ill be able to take it. think im just ready for UT and the completely free world....late classes, getting Paid for classes, living away from home, (well i already do that) and enjoying the joys of single life while away at college...time to go back to family guy. cya bye
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| ha i havent posted here in forever...i dont really like writing much...and my summer is boring so far...maybe it will get better once i go back to work. im going to the beach wednesday..but its with my parents and grandpa, so its not going to be as fun as it could be...ill have to get off on my own and find women or something...that or ill sleep the whole time, and that works too. i'd like to be healed right now so i can go wakeboarding. but oh well....joe has started a campaign to keep us active and not on the computers so much, so we have been playing soccer and tennis and are supposed to go running tomorrow. its kinda cool when you can do stuff fwith a group. and my tires were stupid the other night...stupid flat! got on the spare and got back to joes to switch vehicles and Still made it on time. ok i think ill go now...probably be just as long till i post here again ..lol.
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| so yeah, i havent posted in a while...thought i would today. my sister
died in a car crash last night and it really sucks. an officer was at
the house at 630 this morning and its already been an incredibly long
day. im so drained and the day is nowhere near over. i think it already
got around the whole school in like 5 minutes because thats how seymour
is. i dont really plan to go back any this week...and i dont want to
take my exams. theres not really much else to say. lots of people have
been coming to the house and some people are coming by after school. if
you see this your welcome to come by. its always appreciated. please
pray for my whole family...its really tough on them. especially my dad
he's taking it harder then anyone. but im gone for now...bye bye
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